i was supposed to update this post yesterday.
but sorry i was tooo tired..

so now, im gonna write what happened yesterday :D

yesterday my mom waked me up bye yellin my name while i was sleeping..
then i really not very syok
you know the feelings..
like ur name was yelled so loud while ur asleep..

it was like 7am i had my breakfast
and then the conductor came and fetched me to sepanggar there...
we arrived there like 8am++
and we thought we were late..
mana tau, the lesson started around 9.30am
i should know one thing, kita punya kerajaan stuff menang macam punya ==

honestly, i never thought that i could be so fast to take the law lesson
once i reached there, the 1st thing came to my mind was:
when i could going back???
haha.

we just had 4 chinese in our class, including the teacher was 5 chinese.
so kasihan.
and those malay, philipines people LOVE to smoke.
i was like what the heck, i'm gonna die...

you know,
yesterday morning i ate only 2 cakes and dinner during dinner time,
i didnt eat my lunch cuz too many people waiting the super small canteen
i even guessing it was not called a "canteen"

honestly speaking, i didnt hear the teacher teaching
cuz they spoke malay
they were boring
so, me and loli just talking talking talking XD

yesterday was the day that i really like lived without my mom
after yesterday, i knew that mom is import. to me.
because of her, i dont need to worry abt my foods XD
haha.

tomorrow have to go to school,
i think i should get going
see you guys..

today's UBS exam...
ah b sit besides me..
so you know what was supposed to happen lah~ XD

honestly, if ah b didnt help me in the exam
i think i would die,
i mean the exam was hard to me...

however, i FORGOT to rename to backuped file
then, maybe...haiz
you may not understand what i'm talkin' about
nevermind, it's not important to me since i walked out from the lab XD

i dont know what results will i get,
of course i hope i'' get a good result
cuz $30 is not cheap ok...

im going to sleep, bye bye ur tail XD

i'm having a good and bad day...
everyone should know why
because they are also like me...

ARGH!! my results...
i cant understand why my PA scored 47%....
and add math 21/100
i'm so pro ==
in fact, im a lil bit disappointed with my SPM MOCK RESULTS T.T

and the english...
ms. luk thought had people cheating during the exam..
so she marked our papers sooo strictly...
sigh...

but one thing it's really happy for AWHILE is
i am one of the luckiest students in geo class..
because they are only 8 peoples passed geo among all students like 40++

the day after tomorrow,
i'm gonna have UBS exam!!
Listen to me, ...
I LOVE IT!!! XD

people who are not going to seat for UBS exam,
always tryin to show me like,
"heyy, i'm not gonna seat for UBS exam, lalala..."
haha. well, you know im just kidding.

now i wanna sleep, but my mom told me dont sleep first...
when i wanna online, my mom keeps asking me go to bed, go to bed...
isn't something wrong with me and my mom? O.O

even my results are so suxx, but i still believing
EVERYTHING CAN BE CHANGED, just trust me and you yourself :)

My SUNDAY

Oh my...Today I'm pretty tired.
I'm already very tired, plus I have gone out the whole day....

I went to church around 8am till 1pm like that.
Then I just slept like 30 mins cuz around 3.30pm I had to go to pastor house to have tea time..
I got back home like 5.30pm..
And of course we had a great evening there :)

This is Pastor William and his whole family.

He with his wife, Auntie Lorna and their two sons-Issac and Jeremaih.

At night, I had math tuition.
Was doing many excercise there and was not bad.
But I am really very tired.
I'm not acting tired.
Yeah, this is what have happened on my SUNDAY :D


Before I make conclusion, I would love to say 'thank you' to my sister, sis. Annie..
Even she's sick and not feeling so well but she still went to my home fetched me to pastor house.
I'm impressed of this so much :)
Well, God 'll bless her back haha.


Gtg now, see you guys..

'Shopping' + Dreams + Story

Hmm, you know today i just slept like 5 hrs ONLY.
from 3am to 8am++ like that. I'm like dying..
You know why I got up so early? Because of my mom lo
She wanted me to accompony her to shopping.
I can say 'NO' meh?

I am very scared of this you know....
Because my mom will go into the shop that she likes the most,
And starts to pick the clothes and EVERYTHING she likes
And me just sitting down there....
Walking around...
Sounds boring right?
YESSSSS, this is what i can tell you..

Just now at church, we were discussing our DREAMS :D
Last time i asked my mom, "Mom, what kind of jobs do you want me to have?"
She was like very automatically answered, "BANK MANAGER."
Then , I was hanging there.
Cuz I never thought that I wanted to be manager.
Even if I really want to be manager,
I'll choose to be a HOTEL MANAGER but not BANK MANAGER.

Well, see how first XD
Maybe I change my mind tomorrow
and my mom will win.

And, today, I wanna share some story to you..
I heard my pastor told me just now...real story:-

1 boy, he is like 21 yrs old.
His parents divoiced since he was still a young boy.
He has a 18 yrs old girlfriend.
He told the pastor that his gf got pregnant and seeking for helps.

This does matter, the most important thing is:-

When the pastor asked him, "How come like this? Are you planning to marry her?"
Then the boy said, " I dont know. She's NOT my dream girl. I'm just....."

Did you get my 'important point'?
This true story is used to remind all of you no matter boys or girls
If you're human being then you should always remember this story...
Don't get in wrong situation just because want to satisfy.

To girls, find your Mr. Right not Mr. Right Now
To boys, find your Mrs. Right not Mrs. Right Now

So yeah... This is just to remind you before you 'do'
Ok, time for me to sleep now, so see you guys... :)

Today's a challenging day, to me.
Cuz an important thing is happening. [sorry i cant tell cuz it's private]

It has just finished and thanx God..
It was not as bad as I thought.

I have learnt something,

No matter what happens, just stay your faith and avoid all negative thoughts.

well, i have to go now, see you guys. Sweet dreams :)

Happy B'day DADDY!

hey hey! I'm pretty good today :D I also don't know why O.O
but one thing, I wanna say and tell the world is...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!

Even today's my dad b'day, but we have not celebrated with him.

'Cuz he's so busy, been working the whole day. Really the whole day XD

Well, I think I'm not gonna say the 3 words [you know that XD]

But, since today's my dad 50th b'day, so I think i'm gonna say....

I LOVE YOU DAD!!!

ARGH!!! I wanna kill somebody! ==
Just in case he's super stubborn.
He drives me so crazy.

Why guys are always like that?!
I don't know what to say. Seriously.
If he continues like this, I promise I'll never talk to him again.
And stop arguing with me, PLSSSS!

I don't want him to own me.
It's not what I want.
He says he understands me. Is him fuking kidding?
Now who is bluffing who??

Sorry ya, I'm just....
This guy is winding me up.
I can't stand anymore..

True Jokes

I heard this... Were funny but a lil foolish XD

[At Burger King]
Cashier: What would you like to order?
Guy: A cheeseburger.
Cashier: Do you want cheese on that cheeseburger?

AND

[Somewhere]
Guy to girl smoking cigarette: Didn't your mother tell you smoking is bad for you?
Girl: Didn't your mother tell you never to talk to strangers?

haha.

I was supposed to update my blog last night.
But, I didn't know why there was somebody kept talking to me.
Super fan. ==

When we chatting,
I was just thinking about should I create another msn id?
hmmm, well, I will tell you guys if I did.So don't worry you can still connect with me XD

After the mock exam, I feel like I don't wanna study anymore.
No matter how many imes I have been telling myself,
It just seems like not working out :(

So, I hope myself can study even just 30 mins!!!!!!!
Yeah, I think that's all.

Sunday Morning

Yesterday night somebody told me, "ui, tomorrow we go Vegas have our breakfast."
Then, I followed after church service next morning.

I just ordered a cup of hot Cuppucino. The original cost was 6++
Since it was happy hour so it cost me like 3.50.
It tasted nice.

So you can go there have a good time when HAPPY HOUR.

I was hungry but I couldn't have my breakfast
cuz my I had to have my another breakfast with my parents.

So I just watched them eating their breakfast.
American breakfast so yummy XD

Ok, I think I should get going. I'm hungry XD

Heyy! Today is quite good because my mood is good.
You know why? cuz I had a good sleep till 11.30am like that.
haha.

When I got up, I shocked because I didn't realize it was so late.
Then, my mom brought me for a haircut.
Thx God, my new style of haircut is still ok XD

Last day of mock exam!

Today's the LAST Day of SPM...Mock. Yay!
How much I wish today was last day of REAL SPM EXAM.
Well, I should be happy at least this exam is over and I can online and update blog.

Yesterday while I was doing my revision for Geography sub,
My mom suddenly told me, "In fact, I can go to science stream de bah."
Me also suddenly.... I was silent.

Then my mom kept saying like I dont like enough confidence and bla bla bla....
I tell you guys... I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD GO TO SCIENCE STREAM.
I would rather do my accounts than physics, bio, chemis...

Teacher Alex already told us that Geo is the most hardest sub among all SPM subs.
But me didn't realise that.
Today, I have realised! Really hard. Cuz you'll need to memorise a lot of things.

Yesterday I didn't study the Geo past years,
So just now before the exam started I just started studying.
And the girl from Senior 1... [everytime during the 3rd recess she finds me that one]

She came my classroom and found me.
I was really shocked because I knew she would really disturbed me.
Then, I really got disturbed.

I was running out of time, she still talking to me.
I was like WT* . I was trying my best to control myself.
And she didn't ask my premission to WEAR my jacket. [ I hate that without my permission....]

So I just be patient for what she had done.
While I was doing the past years, she told me, " dont do lah, last minute already.
Actually, i had left 25-30 mins before the exam started.

For her actions, the words she said to me,
I didn't know what to do, so I just smiled at her and kept saying lol lol lol.

So the point I got today is,

This girl is used to train my patient.

Well, even just finished the mock exam, but don't relax yourself.

Remember, the real SPM is waiting us.

Good luck and night everyone xx

WHY AM I ALWAYS LIKE THAT?

Sunday. My last time to update blog from tomorrow.
SPM mock coming soon.
Sunday is just my another busy day.
Except coming to church, I need study on Sunday too.
So, I have studied today. Tomorrow we have tests.
Just now no current [always like that]
I studied too.
See, I'm crazy.

Besides that, I'm just human. An extra ordinary human.
But I have to prepare properly.
I do my best, God do the rest.
I'm tryin' to relax myself.
I don't have to force myself, give myself so much pressure.

Except studying, I'll miss him too.
I know I'll not be able to online for 8 days long.
Even online also can't be long, so what for?
Better not online.

Why we are together, I just not cheerish him [maybe he always envy envy envy!]
And when he leaves, I start to miss him.
Why am I always like that.

Now I'm not be able to online again.
I am regret.
Regret for what I've done to him.
I promise no next time.

Year 2010.
I'll be in Senior 3! Yay!
Finally, I have been waiting this year to come.

I'm writing this is very EMO mood.
Almost 1am, I guess my bed is waiting for me.
Good night sweet dreams sleep tight for me.

我知道我有情绪，我要照顾它

I have been so long time not online. Tired. Super mega tired. Last Friday, we had 3 tests. and Next Monday I'm going to have another 2..ugh ugh

Just now U.Edwin picked me back to home. While on the way to home, he talked to me about the society. and this really encouraged me to study HARDER! yeah, h.a.r.d.e.r

He told me:" If you want to earn more $, you must study more harder then others, more hardworking than others and many more......"

When I almost give up, uncle told me this and I should think of it seriously.

THINK OF YOUR FUTURE!

You know when exam coming soon, I will be like a lil bit easy-angried. So, Loli taught me this one

[ 我知道我有情绪，我要照顾它]

this is very useful

I know I have emotional, I need to take care of it.

This is an another pointless post, don't see it!

Heyy! long time no see :) I have been not updating my blog for long time cuz I don't know what to post.

These few weeks, I am like dying. Everyone seems like dying because of a lots of works to do, really a lot lerr.

Plus i'm suffering from FLU & I get a sore throat. Now I'm ok with my throat, hopefully.

Just the FLUUUUUU BAH!!

Something funny here... I have promised somebody that I would always take good care of myself.

but, the next day, I got sick!! aweee.

Well, I think I'm not gonna tell him. He will only worries for me only. so what for?

oops, I really have no idea to write...BB!

When I saw this pic, I felt something inside me. I couldn't explain it out. Seriously.

This is Jay Koopman.

Jay Koopman:"You should know your identity."

This is Jaeson Ma.

Jeason Ma. Chinese American.

RAP KING.

He says, "Life is about knowing Him."

Pastor Kong

The speaker of the 2 days conference.

23 to 24/9 we went to church attending like a conference "LIVE A LIFE"
It was awesome. When I say it, I mean it XD

The pastor and the whole team were from City Harvest Church in Singapore.
I saw a boy who dyed his hair like dark red. wow it was pretty cool.
The boy really looked like David.


I'm not joking. If you guys see him, you'll agree what I'm saying XD
You know, after the conference. I found the confidence.

I saw many students from our school, like Claudius, Anabelle, Federick and GERALD XD
He accepted himself as a Christian already.
Yeah, thanx Jesus.

The confidence of fighting for my studies. I know I can do well in SPM.
This really good because I have lost this kind of confidence.
Now, I have found it. =D

He shared about :- WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
1. seek for God.
2.Focus on the Promises of God not your problems.
3.Stand before God.
4.Wait for Holy Spirit.
5.Give Praise to God.

Yeah that's right.
You know, the pastor has a wife who is a STAR.
I'll show you her wife's pic.

yesterday i went to city mall with parents.
bought many reference books. spm coming,
i need more reference books.

you know, I'm so bad.
I saw 3 couples. almost the same one. why?
good looking + not so good looking
I'm so bad.
in fact, everyone talks about it! XD haha.

I saw another 3 couples too.
alll the same one
foreign boy + asian girl
and i thought about someone [you should know who I was thinking XD]

besides that, I saw somebody's DREAM GUY too :p
i saw LING LING with his grandfather.
but he didn't walk with his grandfather.
so weird.

i got BORED while I was shopping at city mall.
then I EMO.
you know when I get BORED, I'LL EMO TO YOU without any reason.

when I emo, I just stop talking. maybe get angry without reasons too.
haha. I'm so special.
almost 2am now, its 2pm there o~ XD

but i'm not sleepy. I'm emo again....

Today is a...GOOD SUNDAY XD. Well, at least i'm not indolent as usual. When I got back home, it was like 12.30pm. I started studying till 5pm. But I don't know why i always feel like I'm not gratified what I got. Maybe I give myself too much presses.

Even Michael also told me, he knows I work XXXX-ing hard. [YOU KNOW WHAT I'M WRITING]. Yeaaah, I'm assiduous student, don't you know?? XD Mike, the diligent person in some way, we both have the same weakness.

WE DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO RELAX!!

yeaahh, i'm serious. One day he asked me, :"you know how to relax?" I was like, "umm...hmmm... ughhh" it was so hard to think how I relax. Then after one minute, I told him,:" Talking to you is the most effective way to relax myself."

HE WAS SOO HAPPY FOR WHAT I TELLING HIM.

___________________________

it was a heavy rain here, like AUTUMN in the America.

While I was on the bed

I saw everything was so quite.

It made me miss him much more than usual :(

today lolo was not feeling well.

she got back home earlier. she left me :(

today's like another day.

everyone was doing eko homeworks.

i did it ealier cuz i have another geo essays to write.

after got back, and i took some rest.

you know i was like crazy.

i kept writing geo essays

and

studying sej

till 11pm

then i'm here right now.

i study hard

i play hard.

everytime i see the SPM countdown notice board

i feel stress

i never felt like this before.

do you guys feel like that as i do?

at school, i acting like very happy

in fact, i feel stress.

however

i know i'll be ok.

God is always my tower of refuge and strength.

and believe that you'll get a flying colors in your SPM.

if you belive, you CAN do it.

Impossible means nothing.

just now when i was at tuition, suddenly we talked about where to study while we were doing maths. Jesbelle was planning to study in the UK, but just now she told me she changed her mind, i think so. she doesnt want to move soo far.

i dont wanna move so far too, maybe just move to Australia or New Zealand. oh no :( i dont want sheeps XD but i want Obama lol. yeah right. i wanna move there.

Jack told me something that impressed me a lots, he told me if he had a chance to overseas, he would find jobs there and wouldnt go back here. i have been thinking this question so many times....

i think i will get back here of course XD cuz i dont wanna leave my parents, friends, or anyone. this is my hometown. am i right? ^^

we had a talk at school, around 9am we went to hall. Mr. POONG didnt know we all went to hall and he went to our class... he's always like that....actually, i already learnt it at church. the main point is : NO MORE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS. =D

just now tuition, Golden niat sai. why? we said he is like a children, baby. haha. he got angry also because of he couldnt get the correct answer for the hard hard maths question.

i love this band:-

BOYS LIKE GIRLS

and yeah, girls like these boys XD

i heard they said in the radio...

"keep your loves one close you like we do"

always remember this, keep the person who you love besides you :)

hi

so tired these days like dying you know == even i less online, i wanna sleep, but i seem like never get a SUFFICIENT sleeping-time. why??? k la, i just .....

i wanna say abt NOTHING :D ==

thanx jamie for helping us in the commerce project.

thanx everyone who help me in the geo project.

thanx everyone who support me all the time.

____________________________________________________________________

hmmm, you know?

just tell you especially if you're girl

do you think posting your sexy picsss on net like profiles on facebook

is

so so

cool nice ??

and people will add you because of this?

and people will do something with ur pic?

if i see this pic

the first thing i know about you is

YOU'RE CHEAP

i'm sorry for sayin this

but everyone has different opinions

and my opinion is this.

My Monday

English oral started from today! i was the 3rd person to present my oral. hehe XD

well, i was a lil bit nervous cuz i was not sure whether i could memorise or not

but, i never thought that...

teacher told me: "Good. You have done well."

muahahaha XD

thanx God for what i got :)

i'm still very busy with school stuff like projects

i just done commerce pro

now come out a comp pro again = =

my life...

but we still can make it meaningful

My day II

i am supposed to do Geo project EARLIER.

But i am lazy.

so today the whole day just doing the geo project.

i have lotssss of works to do.

oh pleaseeeee!

eng oral,

summaries,

essays.

commerce pro. :((

k la, not only me. trying to console myself. -.-

i have spent like 2 hrs. just to draw the map of likas. pro right??? XD

and yeah

i got FULL marks on my essay part of GEOGRAPHY sub.

this is the second time.

wow~~

hope i can score FULL marks again on my final exam

and of course SPM.

My day

today's the first day school reopens. i couldnt get up myself lol. too tired ba. uumm, my results for last exam not bad la. only my accounting. SIGH!

i was in the tuition, we helped somebody marked all the answer sheets. didnt even do one question, cuz it was allll add.math. believe me, if you were me, you wouldnt do either! XD

Jesbelle was so busy doing her gift for her boyfriend. just asking advices from Susan.

Susan was doing the gift that will be given to Craystal. she's leaving for Switzerland.

and me, was doing nothing. just seeing those pics of Jesbelle with her boyfriend. soo sweet ~ XD

while at school, i was asking teacher to give me moreee marks. HE BULLIED ME! that was funny haha.

Online People on Facebook

Online People on Facebook

hey guyss. how you doing in holidays?? well, i was not doing ok. i was sick and i couldnt go out do projects. that was soo suxx. now i'm ok. thank u God :)

i just found this pix. it means something, just for those people who just broke up with their gfs/bfs.

...make sure you read every sentences...

???

My MATHEMATICAL FUNCTION :-

Gaussian: e^(-x^2)

A Powerful Prayer

“This is my Bible. I am what it says I am. I have what it says I have. I can do what it says I can do. Today I will be taught the word of God. I boldly confess my mind is alert, my heart is receptive; Ill never be the same. In Jesus name, God bless you.” - Joel Osteen

wedding day 250809 :DDD

Hey you :D I’m pretty good mood today :DDD today’s 250809. My wedding day HAHAHA. Well, I’m serious. Just now chatted with him. I was supposed to sleep early but since he was on there, so I talked to him. finally he got back from Virginia haha. I’m so happy :DDDD

I was sooo tired but still I talked to him. he told me what had happened in Virginia. And yeah… of course told me that he loves me lol :p he shared his dream to me, it was like :-

I was out at the jobsite one night until 11:30 PM and i was so tired I fell asleep at the desk
when I fell asleep that night I dreamed about u and I dreamed we were getting married lol
when I woke up my head was lying on the desk and it was so real i was like OMG
i heard u say the wedding vows
it was like real
we got married on a beach
u were wearing a veil covered in purple flowers
we were both wearing white

haha. I was so happy. Actually, this is what I always dream about! :DDD yeah, maybe you think I’m crazy. And YES! I can tell you I’m crazy for him!!!

from now on, he is my naughty sweet awesome husband :DDDD and I’m his sweet deliceous wonderful lovely awesome wife.

this was written by himself i just copied and pasted.

sick

hellooo :) got up super early like 7am. you know why?? cuz i was not feeling well yesterday..normail enteritis like indisgestion. vomitted about 4 times, it was like dying.

just now aet some maggi, only a few but i couldnt finish. that means i havent 100% healed la :( i'm so poor :( i was supposed to go to school yesterday. but i really couldnt! sorry lolo :(

so, only lolipop and eason did the project. :(

i love u

finally he got on line.

talking to him, makes me happy.

i'm so happy. i can't sleep.

this pic shows what i feel inside right now.

I love u more than mostest!

i just got fiona's message. she told me she's leaving for America with her mom this friday. so sad.

and my friends they are leaving for Malacca today! attending 54 Christ (Fight For Christ). actually, i was planning to go, but i need studying. so i just....

Jay Koopman.

this pic was taken during Extra Ordinary Conference which held on 28-31/5/09.

...miss those days...

even tired, but worth it.

when i look at this pic, i remember what he said the funny joke :D

and telling me that

I'm EXTRA ORDINARY!!

To you my lovely mom

my mommy. i love you. sorry i have never said even this 3 words -i love you to you. you still love me. sorry everytime you talk to me, i think you're annoying me. i'm sorry. so sorry mommy.

i am a cool person. i dont show my love easily to others in a direct way. you know mommy, i always want to hug you. so tight. but, i cant put down my faces. sorry mommy. even just a hug i cant give you. just now when you cryin', i just sit beside you and i wanted to hug you.

cuz when im in exam weeks. when i cant study well. when i cry. you hug me, tell me keep on moving forwards. thank you mommy. i love you. just now i hugged you. you know i felt so good. even just 5 mins.

what you have sacrificed for me and this family. i know. i do really know. so i always try to get good results to make you happy. everything will be ok mom. i promise i will always take good care of myself.

when i overseas. i will make sure everything is fine. i just have not more than 3 years before i leaving for another countries. i will be cherrish to you, everyone of my parents. and my friends. to me, everyone of you can't be forgotten.

my only sunday

Today morning got up about 7am. was preparing go to church. I had a very good morning. when got back home about 1pm. then, i prayed, bathed and i studied! my uncle told me that relaxing has no benifits for me. b'cuz of this, i was studying Economics the whole afternoon! wow XD but only chp 1. even just chp 1, it took me 3 hours to complete. this is for my som revision. of course i should spend more time on it! i had my dinner about 8pm. after that, i went back do my own stuff, and my dad....kept asking me to watch tv about taiwan news. you know my chinese sucks, you still..... SIGH!! and....bad things occured! sorry bad ><

this is my sunday, my only 23/8/29 sunday.

happy mood

finally, i got your offline messages. what i need to say is, i'm totally in love with you!

you cant never be forgotten in my life!

you always remind me to study well,

and i will!

i promise you.

i'll get myself to study in America.

same country

same city

same town

with you.

i'm willing to sacrifice my sleeping time to study.

you know why?

cuz i wanna study in america.

this is one of my wishes.

my life happy bacause of you.

i love you!!

this post is dedicated to you my love

baby, thanx for being my boyfriend

I happy when you tell me how much you love me

I happy when you tell me how you escape from metting your boss then come back to home just to talk to me

I happy when we spend our time together

I happy when I chatted with you from midnight till the morning like 6 hrs. we didnt sleep. You worth it

I happy when i asked you "if you just had me for 30 secs, what would you do to me?" you told me, "i would hug you andthen tell me how much i love you"

I happy when you talk to me even you're very busy with your works. even you just online for 1 mins, that's really enough for me.

I happy when you tell me i'm the girl that you want to spend your life with

I happy when you tell me that we both were made for each others

I happy when you tell me you wanna get married with me

I happy for what you have sacrificed for me

I happy when you still believe me i'm serious about you when you can't be here

I happy when you tell me that you'll try your best to make my dreams come true

I happy when you protect me from peoples that trying to be harmful to me

I happy when you hug me so tight

I happy when you tell me last night you were holding your pillow and wishing it was me

I happy when you show your super good humor to me

I happy when you tell your friends that i'm your girlfriend

I happy when you say you like talkin to me

every thing that what you've done for me, i'll never forget.

maybe you're not my future husband, but you will be the boy i love the most in my heart ever!

I LOVE YOU BABY!

to anyone who wants to end up their lifes

now i know, something that has changed can never go back to the past. and, something, i'm waiting it coming.

oh well, forget it. i just wanna tell you that, commit suicide is the most stupid thing in the world. stupid than dudes 1000 times. do you know why peoples got their mindset like this? like killing thelselves.

they think dieing is the best method at all. this is because inside them are like empty. they feel their lifes are meaningless. dunno what's the future headings. yeah, i can understand.

whatever, please don't do stupid thing, cuz you're not stupid. God gave life to you, you should be cherrish to it.

Learn to LOVE YOUR LIFE friends!

remember: you don't own authority to end up your life, unless you give your life to yourself.

the day after exams

my goodnessss, today totally another bad day :(((( finally, teacher gave back my accounting exam paper. what the heck, i got 49.5%, plus correction only 54.5% over 100% how come i got this marks?

even only 10 students passed, but this marks really out of my mind was thinking. i was thinking i would get at least 50% above, then i got this..... i was just trying to forget this sadness thing. dont care!!

and yeah, not only acc i failed, i also failed on my BM, i got 38 out of 100% wow! actually, i'm sad.

while BM lesson, we all talking, teacher didnt teaching too. i talked with fern and shien. you know what was our discussion topic? BOYFRIENDS :D

yeah, we were discussing this. like what type of boyfriend you wish you had, what you want him to wear when you both go out together like that. it was so funny haha. and of course, we talked about Michael.

like how did i feel when we kissed, first kiss! oops XD i was a lil bit shy hehe. after our discussion, i felt more better. at least i could forget something apart from my results.

besides, i miss Michael so much. we are like lost connections even one day not talking to him. it's like killing me you know. this is what i wrote last midnight:-

umm..well, my relationship, oh God! save me :( im not ok. if we lived in same country, how great our lifes would be? what i wish right now is, i need make sure my studies doing ok, make sure everything. after 2 years, i'll be leaving for America. maybe Pittisburgh, WOW! i love that. if so, we could get the chance to meet :D and yeah, maybe my parents send me to New Zealand. that's good too because my aunt lives there, and she can take care of me. i always tell myself, if one day he dumps me, what's my respond to him? even he tells me many times, our love is everlasting, but being a girl, i must agree with this statement:- BOYS ALWAYS A LIAR

i'm trying to rescue myself from not being hurted by boys anymore. i know he will never hurt me. if he does, i'll forgive him. i'm just so in love with him. but i will keep a distance away from him, girls like me should know how to protect themselves from getting pissed by guys.almost 2am, time to sleep. sweet dreams :)

huh

finally, i have finished exaaaam! now, focus on my piano exam pieces and school projects. before start doing these stuff, i wanna say something :-

i just wanna say, thank you God, my lovely mother and my awesome father.

in the past exam week, i was tired of studying, they were like always encouraged me, giving me strength to pull through every problems.

while i was studying, i couldnt memorize last time, i was so nervous. it was about 8pm and had not studied all. so i just prayed. God heard me!

He said, "calm down, I'm your God."

just these simple words, but powerful. i clamed down and i could studied well. Praise God!

my boyfriend :)

you know im mad at YOU. dont even know whats going on with us. just gettin' worse, can you feel it? im so sorry because of im not cherrish to you when you're here.

when you're gone, i realized that you're so important to me, sorry baby.

i have been missin you so much you know. in the past, no matter how tired i am, im still stayin here until i meet you. i do know you do the same as me, you always back home to take your lunch, spend your lunch time with me, oh baby thats so sweeet.

thanx for givin me such good and sweet and awesome memories. i'll put them alll in my heart and nothing can take them away from me. the everlasting memories. i told you, i never met guys like you that is soo nice to me. i dont know why you treat me like this, im not worth it but i thanx for your love to me.

im the luckiest girl in the world!!

you dont have to worry anything, to me, you're irreplaceable! so no one can replace you in my heart. hope u understand. my exam is comin soon, so i will less online on this week. my exam is gettin started on 11/8 for one week. so see you soon.

H1N1 is gettin worse everyday, so plsssss take good care for me baby. i'll always love you xxx

im tired by school stuff

you know im sooooo busy!!! today just finished history and economics tests, super tired. i just receiced message from lolipop telling me that tomorrow will have accounting test. and im havin 2nd term mis term exam on next week. you seeeeee, i dont even have any time for sleeping. im tired. almost wanna give up, however, i WONT!!! if something hits me 1 time, i tell you im gonna hit back it 100 times!! yeahh, this is who i am.

sadness

our subject teachers have changed our class seats, ughh. why?? i am not able to sit with yilu again T.T i feel so sad. when we seperated, she hugged me like 3 4 times and yeah i did too lol :p just felt like i dont want this!! now she has moved to new seat and me too, oh man! ive been missing her so much T.T and another thing is, no one will let me to see her bm answer again that's so sad.

i'm not a good girlfriend :(((((((( because i FORGOT his BIRTHDAY!!!! my goodness. how could i forget his b'day????? oh well, today i just noticed. sighh. i'm soo sorry because i was too too tired last night. why i was soo tired? cuz the maths tuition la!! haizz. i'm so sad. i just noticed it about like 6pm. too late. he must be so sad.

today's another day full of numbness. but i still believe tomorrow will get better ...

long post

hi i'm here again. i got nothing to do really. been studying too hard. everyday, i feel the same. i feel like something i want but seems like can't have it. why? like i want him back!! i want my friends back... where are them?

ok, just leave it. don't wanna talk this topic again. but, i have to say that, THANX REILA! just what she wrote on her blog. i tell you i'll never forget what she wrote. just nice :) this is what i want to tell you,

she was writing about me:-

虽然你的blog有满满我最讨厌的英文字。。。

但我还是看完了。。。

因为这是你的blog。。。

即使你打火星字我也是一定会看完它。。。

看了你的blog。。。

i feel very sad。。。

你上选科的时候。。。

有另一种孤独。。。

thank you reila. you wrote what i feel inside every single day. i am trying to rescue this friendships. but what others do?

所以我习惯了。。。

无论在谁的面前。。。

没有冷笑话也要将废话。。。

我们不同班了。。。

不同会社。。。

不同科。。。

只有同一个礼拜只有一次的补习。。。

一次只有两个小时。。。

只有这个时候我们才能呼吸同样的空气。。。

这是我有史以来最开心的补习。。。

因为我可以跟你讲很多话。。。

平时只有下课讲而已。。。

因为我又很多很多的东西要跟你讲。。。

im so touched man! i'm sorry cuz sometimes i skip you during bk tuition, i'm not really want to do, but i just care about my bk very much, i can't fail my accouting. im not like you, you know drawing, you can earn $$$ by drawing. just learn hard about art and your english...

you know bk tuition is my most favvvvoourite tuiton at all, cuz i can talk! talk! talk!

*if i am able to tyoe chinese, no matter how much i dont like to type, i'll type for you too!*

i wanna say thank you to you all my friends! thanx for veing my friends. i dont know how we will be in the future, maybe all of us already become "hello friend". maybe. but i wanna thanx to you all, you know everyone of you was my 1st friends celebrating my b'day. so i thought all of us would celebrate b'days together...now, i dont know already.

feeling sad, but what to do? i still have to study hard, still have to practice well for my piano exam... however, i still believing LIFE IS FULL OF LOVE, but how you find the love without Jesus?

i'm sorry for posting this again and again. cuz i dont feel like say it out so i just telling you by posting on my blog. Good night.

here's my wish :-

i hope i can rescue the friendships between lolipop and reila. we already seperated, cant let this seperate again.

and thanx for lolipop, everytime i spend time with you, i feel happy.

thanx for reila, willing to be as childsih as you can, just to make me happy.

THANX MY FRIENDS!

...

...everyone of you...

my saturday

ohhhh man! i'm super farking tired!!!! been doing the shit school stuff the whole night, it's time to rest. BUT!, my mom is sleeping on MY bed. i can't sleep. sighhh!

i feel so stress these few weeks, got really lots of school stuff to do, but i only got 24 hours. i didnt have my dinner today, just didnt feel like eating. now im hungry. very hungry :( almost 2am, no one cook for me and its impossible for me i cool for myself. I'll DIE!

we just had the FASHION SHOW in church! well, it was great and awesome. i'm just lazy to upload pics, so pics are not available hehe :D tomorrow is gonna be another busy day... every day is a busy day. so, i'm learning how to enjoy even a busy day!!

i have lots of work to do tomorrow, like practice piano exam pieces, 3 essays, study all those poems and short stories and many more... i was gonna die yesterday. i just feel like i cant overcome!

but, i know, I'M EXTRA ORDINARY!! and yeah, this is what an extra ordinary person does!

take it seriously.

this is what i want to update now, i promise you this is the last post for today, after this, i'll go to sleep....

This is what God wants you to know, take it seriously...

Did you know, my child, that all this time you've been struggling, you've actually been growing roots.

...i just found this and thought it was meaningful, wasn't?...

-end-

happy + tired

another busy and really tired FRIDAY! but you know, something happened today.
well, while i was waiting the teacher at the corner there, the boy just passed through me and he smiled at me :DD he smiled at me made me put down my anxious. i felt so sorry to him cuz something....now i think it's getting better :)

andthen, after the chinese lesson, i was standing at the door (just needed to go inside the classroom), i never thought that it would happen :DD i'm not gonna say about this one, cuz i think you dont have to know. :p

i'm just too happy cuz the two guys are ok. cuz of this, i feel better :)

this post is replied to your post, friend.

actually, i already know it for long time ago. already observed and keep thinking where's the problem between us. i dunno. maybe school resuffle. today's no tuition. you know i kept waiting till school end and i wanted to come home online see what did ham ka ling posted, cuz yesterday puma asked me to see her blog but i already slept.

just now, i saw what she wrote. i feel so sad, really. i keep thinking, what's the problem ya? i miss the days we spent together, like going to canteen together, having lunch together...everything. but did you guys notice that, every time i ask you, " you both want eat at canteen a?" that's mean i wish we could have our lunch together, like in the past. but you almost say "yes."

and, every time when geography lesson, you'll wait me in front of my class waiting me go together with you guys to ai class. today, you didn't...i was disappointed again.... in the past, i really pround of you guys as my friends, cuz we were like true friends, it was like you could feel it.

now what i feel is, our distance is getting far and far away. in the past, geo is one of the lessons i love the most, cuz i am able to see you guys, talk to you. but now, i am like i dislike going to geo lesson, cuz i am alone there. even i sit with you guys but i still feel the distance between us, i just cant go into your daily talking topic. so i just studying there, listening the teacher teaching, even it's boring, but i have no choice.

i always try to find any topics to share with you guys, even not funny joke i also tell to you guys cuz i want talk to you, even just a joke. i was hoping these jokes could repair our friendships, back to the past...i supposed to believe that, it wouldnt happen, maybe.

i dont know whether we can back to past or not, what we can do is, do what we like and what we want, dont force yourself after viewing this blog, like force yourself to eat with me, force yourself to talk to me during geo lesson, it's meaningless.

sorry about what i wrote, this is what i feel. but i still believing friendship forever, until we cant talk or nothing to talk anymore.

My Yesterday

today's offday cuz yesterday was our school bazzar. i didnt go there cuz i knew it would be many people there plus very hot weather, ugh. i rather stayed at home and online :D i was playing piano the whole day...almost. i have to practise real hard and this is what i want and should do :D

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i cant sleep these fews days. i dont know why. been missing him so much you know???????? :(
if one day we break up, how sad i can be? and now, i'm listening this song, "THINKING OF YOU", my goodness, i miss him so much, can't wait to see him :(

you know i never cried for boys, NEVER! but, i did last night, CRIED, cuz i missed, i missed the time we spent together. it's hard to maintain this relationship, different countries, different nationality, i know! i do really know!!

some girl said to him, "you're girlfriend is lucky....."

he said, "i'm lucky to have her"

i'll never forget this situation!! 'cuz of this, i promise him he is not gonna lose me no matter what.

what i can say is,

my boyfriend is worth to the long distance relationship!!