Sunday, 9 May 2010

今年的母亲节 09.05.10

今天是母亲节,我最近都在忙自己的东西,都忘了今天是个特别重大的节日。

我刚刚完成了明天将要送给妈妈的礼物,我也写下几句我一直很想很想跟妈妈说的话。

我一边写一边哭,不知为何,泪不停流,可能感动?但是,我并不要十么感动,我只是很想把话说出来。

我要说,"谢谢你妈妈,让我成为你的女儿,我感到很幸福,我爱你。"

Saturday, 8 May 2010

"love is just a game my dear"

so what should i do?
should i take the risk?

well, love is just a game. nothing else

有时侯真的玩不起

if we ever break up again. i will be like lose my direction

i need you to stay with me forever

i dont want you to leave me

how can you forget someone qho gave you so much to remember?

you never can i never will

we have already created our future together

i dont want to give up

talking to you is my daily routine

without it, ill die probably :/

i want you and only you



alright almost 2am now bye :)

Thursday, 6 May 2010

if i died tomorrow, what one thing would you want me to know?

and

are you mine only?

Monday, 3 May 2010

hey hey hey
im pretty good mood today
well just talked to someone special
i feelgood

but you know what spoils me is
IM HAVING BUSINESS STUDIES TEST TOMORROW
and i know most people will be killed
well hope not :)

and now, im having the third baby lol ==
well im really sleepy now have to go to bed
dont miss me :)

Sunday, 2 May 2010

im not your PERFECT daughter. im sorry mom !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! why?????
you know how heavy is my burden?????
you know i really hate it
i hate it like i hate the hellll
i know im not a perfect person
why i get angry so easily then you all say " you say you are a christian.." and bla bla bla. SHUT THE F*CK UP MOM and my DEAREST AUNTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
who says chirstians cant get angry?
who says christians are perfect??
you say you understand me
i was just got angry at my dad
because it was just a small thing and he said im stupid
do you know i REALLY REAlly REALLY HATE it when you call me stupid??
i have my own MY SWEET MOMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sometimes i really cant understand why my dad treats me like this?
work pressures?
like i dont have school presure tooo??????????
do you know teenagers nowadays love thier own ways???
it is called BEING INDEPENDENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really hate this
i almost wanted to end up my life
i have many pressure
school, relationship, and PARENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dad you know, the way you talk to me is like you hate me
if you hate me then why you gave birth to me
if you hate me then why you bought everything to me
sometimes i really cant understand why
dont you think REBELLING is such a POPULAR stuff in the teenagers' life nowadays???
today my aunt is gonna share the same room with me
and guess what?
she just said that she has already understood me
she said i just couldnt do well
WT*????
how the hell you knew??????
SO, i think im gonna give up
and IM NOT GONNA SHARE MY ROOM WITH YOU
I WONT ASK YOU TO GET OFF FROM MY BEDROOM
AS I KNOW, I GIVE A F*CKING RESPECT TO YOU
SO, I'LL SLEEP IN THE COUCH DOWN STAIRS THERE
GOOD NIGHT SLEEP DREAMS !!!!!!!!!!!!

1.05.10 *wish i could reverse the time so everything would be perfect*

today, something happened
i got his message wrote :[ ♥ ...
i asked what happened
he said that i didnt know what happened
and he said i left him for someone else.
*oh he thought i was serious with john* lol

but then he was asking me wanna get back to him
like i always say "once i turn around im not coming back"
i dont know how to do man!

he asked me if i still love him and i said i think so
he gave me the same answer when i asked him sooo...
should i get back to him?
or just leave him alone?

i wish i could leave him alone
but you know its easy to say hard to do

and oh im trying dont really care about it
i know i have got to make a decision
but just.. sigh its complicated

oh well i really dont know what to do
just wait
i need time :)

Saturday, 1 May 2010

fun fun fun

just got back from 1b.
haha it was fun really
well of course i went to watch IP Man
not bad la.
at least i didnt feel boring so it was really ok :D

today loli and i have watched 3 movies WOW
2012, che bi, and IP man
tired really tired

today also the firts time i went out with friends so late
that i came back almost 12am
well, i hope to have the second chance going out with you guys again
its fun im sure :)

tomorrow, help school wash the land of our canteen
oh no. regret little now haha
well im so tired, see you guys :)